urm hai. so like this. sometimes you're on the top. sometimes you're at the bottom. nah but you still must be confidence in yourself. yeah liddat. hm kekadang aku rasa aku tak cukup nak bahagiakan kau. macam tak layak pun. kekadang aku rasa aku tak faham kau. macam aku tak pernah faham kau. cara kau. buat aku fikir macam tu. kekadang jugak aku rasa macam aku punca segala pergaduhan. kan? ye memang betul lah aku lah puncanya. erm entahlah. but lately i've been thinking yang i can't make you happy enough. i'm just ergh how worst i am. i'm sorry. always made you mad and bad mood for no reason. i'm sorry. i'm not good enough. i just can't be perfect. the hell why i'm burst in tears ergh no do you ever feel like you're useless and you cant make the person you love so much happy......... nah maybe im the one yang overthinking but hmm i feel useless sometimes. -12.00am- okay so today a new day. its 13th of June. its our anniversary. its already 11 months sayang. selama 11 bulan kau temankan aku. kau sabar dengan aku. kau layan kerenah aku. aku harap kau takkan bosan dengan aku. dengan perangai aku. aku harap sangat sangat kau jangan bosan dengan aku. walau macam mana pun please stay with me sayang. i really really hope. hm almost one year. hehe im glad you're still with me. jangan pernah kau cuba berubah sayang. please. stay you. aku sayang kau sangat sangat. its like a miracle. you know all my secrets. all my flaws. all my weakness. and you're the one that i give everything. cause i'm all yours. ceh haha. you are a sweet boyfriend. a nice guy. good-looking tho. but i like to say that you are gemok and hitam hehe. even tho its the truth haha but at my sight you are a handsome guy. good-looking enough. and i love your smile. so much. seriously. i just cant stand with your smile. im dying haha. im happy when i saw you're smiling or laughing. even tho you're with you friends but im happy for you. they can cheer you up while im not with you. at school , seriously most of the time i wanna be with you. love me forever. stick with me. guide me when i'm wrong. cause i wanna be the best for you even i'm not the best one. i know that. i'm not a good girlfriend actually. but i'm trying to be the best for you. i will fight for this love. lamanya kita together sayang. hope kekal okay sayang. we made many promises kan? dont break promises okay. i put my trust on you. now i just hope that you will stay forever with me. i love you. forever. take care of yourself. ingat apa yang aku pesan tau sayang :) bai muahhhh xx